Coffee of Cat

So new artist love for Adam Hughes! Just an amazing artist. He's really inspiring me a lot lately. It's been pulling me out of my rut i've been in. Gonna get myself a debit/credit card since my other is about to expire soon, too. Plus, another shop buff, tian-Mu is my new favorite store! I've got some dresses on order, with cute little shoes, and some sexy new socks from sockdreams. I've been gay for interweb shopping. Just can't wait for my honeymoon~! So many things we're gonna buy in Japan.We won't have much money, but..i'm sure we're just going to have a blast in our ryokan and hotels. He's picked the places he wants to hit up, and i've picked mine.

And I just got offered Ford Modeling for the third fucking time.....OH! And new kitten this weekend!!!! Super excitement! Auburn Fair and Renaissance Faire is coming up soon too. So many things going on it's kinda hard to keep up. I'm gonna be so fat after this. Oh well! Belly dancing overtime is all I can do. That means you too Nikki!

Small plug for you. See you in a month on my b-day!

Well, I got to see Mackenzy the other day, along with Amaethon. I got SO many pictures! Mackenzy is chubby as hell, like no joke, kid's fat. And Amaethon looks like he's nothing but two twiggy, little legs. I had to go to a funeral the other day, for my great Uncle Don. (He was adorable as hell in his baby photos.) He was a really good relative, but i'm in debate as to whether I want a symbol for him tattooed on me. And something strikes me as odd, but, every funeral i've been to on my father's side, no one ever cries. They're always happy. It's a good family. My mum's side...meh, I could do without sometimes.

Another thing that's odd, Nikki's and I's conversation has kinda sunken in. I have to be honest, ever since that, I feel a lot calmer and not so terrified about death anymore because now I don't feel so stupid about what I do believe in, because BAM, someone else does too. John doesn't share the same views, but he's all ass backwards too. Which keeps it all good.

Costume update!: I ordered the fabric and the Ultra Cal 30, all i have left is clay and burlap, and we're set to make everyone's armor.

Till then, see ya.

P.S. I hope John picks mint and mocha as cake options for the wedding.

So this is just an entry so I can keep everything I want to remember about my wedding, when I start working on it, in one place. ignore it.

-Hair: http://www.brides.com/beauty/hairstyles/gallery/editorspick/detail/114135?f=1541%3a1985&offset=32

-Dress: Version of Walter Crane's Summer 1805 painting: http://www.artmagick.com/pictures/picture.aspx?id=6408&name=summer

-Drink: Lemon and Limeaids

-Theme: Chrono Trigger

-Tux: Gotta find someone to make it!

-Colors: Peacock

-Cake: Mint and Mocha (with John's gunmen all over it -_-)

-Bridesmaid: Kim

-Favors: Mint and fudge macarons
-Groomsmen: Dennis

-Food: Salsa, and an avacado salad of sorts, thinking of certain pastas and a deli meat type of sammich...but...we may change that.

So third shift isn't so bad anymore. That little extra money helps out a lot since i'm going to pay back my college loan now. And i got a lot of things under way. Gotta make 5 outfits before Ohayocon, do all the armor for everyone else, And start building crap for my wedding. Holy shit, and Greg is having ANOTHER FUCKING CHILD. 2! 2 FUCKING CHILDREN! *count laugh* ah ah ah! Complete dumbass. He called me up on my new cell (yay! I'm with the rest of the world!) and as soon as he about said it, I fucking knew. His bitch ass wouldn't call me up unless it's for something he wants to brag about. So now dad's hauling some ass to fix the house (it's about damn time) So kitchen is getting fixed, bathroom is getting re-floored, replace the roof, fix the laundry room, and replacing all the carpet in the house. All for not because the boys are gonna trash it with Greg's new gf. *face palm* Fail fest is all I gotta say.

Kim's baby is doing awesome. Hmmm Not much on her for news. Oh well. Other updates? John's ring came in, pretty fantastic. I finally broke down and got a big girl purse and bras on shopping sprees with Nikki, Rachel, and Veronica. I've also realized sublime glow from jergens smells like hot spreaded men's asses, but it makes you look oh so pretty. Seriously, looks like someone exploded a pinata of sparkles in a hot gust of awesome across your body.

Jesus, well this was too long for me, so i'm done, gonna listen to some Rihanna and head to bed. NIGHT ALL.

So John finally picked what he wanted as his wedding ring. *Pointpointpoint* >>>> http://www.amazon.com/Titanium-Wedding-Band-Accents-Size/dp/B000P0R472/ref=sr_1_10?ie=UTF8&s=jewelry&qid=1245790080&sr=1-10

Sweet tits! I still haven't decided on mine yet. I found one I really liked that was $2000 but was dropped to $300. I can't get it though because my credit card is gay and wouldn't have enough room on it because it's too full of the dick it has now in its ass. So i'll get something else. Other news, I'm on third shift now. It can get pretty intimidating when you're only 5 feet tall and by yourself for 3 hours in a gas station in the middle of nowhere. I need to learn some fightin skillz. *pokes flab* Well goodnight.

DAVID CARRADINE DIED! NOOOO!!! *goes to slap someone*

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rqtr_RvR3sY&feature=channel_page <<<BAHAHAHAH Well I got a job!!!! YES! I can afford to pay bills again! And my rent is going down! hurrah! Now if only I can get John to grow up and not take a game so fucking seriously. I tell him to calm, it's just a game, no need to freak, when you're level headed, you can pick it back up again. but oh no, he says I don't understand. No, I do, I understand the frustration and the desperation to try to win just one more trophy just to get to the end, but...Seriously....He's going homicidal and yelling at me because of it. Wtf? Onto other things, might kick back up some NanoWrimo. Work's good, might have another job to go along with the one i have. Gonna see if I can get my sister her first tattoo. Hmm...I had other rant, but nah, fuck it, they're boring. I've been naming everything fuck salt.

So John JUST got into Thermatru which my mum and I have been fighting to get into for 3 months now. But that's ok, he got it, then THEY FIRED HIM ON THE SAME DAY! Saying "He wasn't getting it/not understanding the job." No one was training him. He never had previous experience and they left him there. Wtf? Now since he has to go back to McD's, he's extremely bummed. And now, I don't have a job because the place that i've been trying to get into for a month with "Oh yeah, we're totally stoked about hiring you~!" Wants to send me to Churobusco. I wouldn't have any qualms with it had it not been for the fact that I told them during the interviews that my car can't make it there. It's just outside of Fort Wayne, how the hell am I supposed to get there? Now I get to look forward to selling my things just to make sure we have a place to live. Great fucking times.

So after Joetta fired John on Friday for no damn good reason, I called the DM and let him no what was up and that we were going for unemployment. What happens the next day??? We get a call from Joetta and she says he can have his job back, but his hours are going to be cut. (Knowing her, it'll be drastic) But if he doesn't take it, then he be marked as quiting. So..buh! Wtf? so we have the numbers for harassment and McD's labor laws...so..we'll see.

Time of when the pressure is really on on whether or not a job is coming into my grasp. For now, i'll be working on art. There's a class i'd like to attend to by Alvin Lee, but...no money, means no class. Eventually, if he keeps going with it, i'll join in. i'd really love to get into Udon Entertainment, but, must study PCS3 first. So until i'm employed, i'm working on that crap. Kim's baby is looking crazy like her, still haven't got to see Kenzy yet. We'll see how that goes...hmm. I kinda wanna be preggo...but..i'd probably end up killing myself from fear. Time's not right yet though. Some things have to happen first. I'm still waiting for them. I'd like it if a wedding was in the mixture of things to come, but, that may not be happening. Not due to financial, but...i'm slightly worried. i don't want to sound stupid/fake when I say this. But it feels something terrible might happen soon.

ANYWAYS! Enough of that. Gonna go finish some work before bed.

In two weeks i'll be out of McD's. I don't care if I don't have a back up job right away, but i'm not staying there anymore. I'm stoked i'm even leaving! Might have a job at the Valero gas station, but the Store Manager has to have me interviewed by the DM, so I'm going in tonight to ask if there's been any progress in that since I don't have a phone to be contacted at. Well, I guess that's about it for an update.

So Dennis is FINALLY FUCKING GONE! 6 months of him sucking down our paychecks, ruining my home, and being a total bitch ass perv on John's computer. (There was SO MUCH PORN). So, congrats to John and I. I don't care how fucking lonely he is. Fuck that. May sound selfish, but we almost lost the apartment because that pecker and i'm SICK of eating McDonalds for supper because we can't afford a major meal without him eating it in one sitting.

Other news, I wouldn't have made the deadline for America's Next Top Model, sorry Rachel and Nikki. AND>>> Cecil made a funny. He yelled about credit card secretary (That charged him 50 for insurances he told them to take off three times now) that he was going to reach through the phone, grab her tit, and rip it of. I laughed.So.Damn.Hard.

Exercising is coming along ok. I just can't wait to get my back fixed so I can exercise more.

bahh...needless update, but did so nonetheless.

So Kim had her baby on Tuesday, March 24, and weighed 8.6 lbs and was 20.4 inches long. Congrats Kim, Dewy, and Amaethan! Pictures of him will be uploaded on my facebook soon.

Onto the technical things involved with that. I got my leg splattered with afterbirth blood. Saw Kim's va-jay-jay. Was in the room with her for 12 FUCKING HOURS. As soon as the baby was born, Kim had some Arby's not even two seconds later. Literally.(It was a roastburger curly fries and some Sprite.) The nurses were kinda bitchy and acted as if we didn't know anything. Dewy cried like mad. (Which made me cry in the end....damnit) Dewy also had an infected tooth too, so that made everything worse. Hospitol food sucked. AND GUESS WHAT. The people that prepared it....DIDN'T WEAR GLOVES!!! Not even a hospital wears gloves. (Fuck you McD's.) Mate (short for Amaethan) had his eyes opened since he was born and still has them open. Dewy was holding Amaethan, but Mate thought he was Kim, so he grabbed Dewy's chest hair and latched onto his nipple through his shirt. lol. ummm..If I remember anything else, I'll edit and add to this post. None the less, Congrats to Kim!

So it's final, i am putting in my two weeks notice in on Monday if I can get it in. Friday was the worst shit they have ever put me through because that bitch as Anita is there. So story goes like this. I just came in to work, they stick me on table. Ok. Everyone, even Tim, has known that I can't wear the gloves we have. And guess who's running the shift for lunch? Fat ass Anita. So she gets shitty and tells Joetta that ihave to put gloves on. Joetta tells her I'm allergic and Anita goes into this huge shit about who since she's running shift it should be this way. Ok, she's only been working there for a month since she originally "quit" 5 FUCKING YEARS AGO and is already going to be manager (wow, that won't bite them in the ass). So I've known this twat for years since i worked with her at EOC, and I know she's a manipulative bitch. So I put the fucking gloves on, but that's just not good enough, now Cory has to take my spot because Anita has to through another fucking fit. I go back and tell Tim Sr (our owner) that they're pretty much patronizing me right there and i'm going to quit if they don't stop. So he calms me down, and I go on fries for the time being. He goes up and tells them to lay off, that he even knows I can't wear them. So they stop harrassing me, but only until he leaves. So lunch is over, they're going to put me on present (which i haven't done for MONTHS) and start harassing me again saying i have an attitude. I calmly stated to Joetta that I would like to talk with her later, that we both need to calm down and just get through the day. But oh no, not good enough for Anita. Her fat ass comes waltzing up and she just has to put in her two cents of stating "You need to take your attitude to the back away from the customers. You can't be acting like this in front of them." So i'm thinking wtf? you're not even in this, and i'm calm with her right now. BUT, here's the great thing about that day. Joetta got YELLED at by the customer that Anita yelled at me for. They stated that Anita needed to stop and that she was in the wrong and so was Joetta. Well, that obviously didn't sit to well with them. And i'm pretty sure she got a nasty note from Tim as well. (And i'm hearing all this from Lori, who also went back there to yell at Joetta about their attitudes towards me. I love you Lori!) So basically, a bunch of shit caused by fatass Anita. So my dad told me to go to Thermatru and make 10.50 an hour. It won't be there long, but I can save up enough money to live and get my comic started with John. So, that's what i'm going to do. It doesn't bother me anymore that they got to me at me weakest time (before my period), but it was a revelation to think, wow....I really don't need this job, it's them who need me. John's quitting too! Mike is quitting soon (one more month), Lori is going to quit once her guy gets his Masters in a couple months. Bret's quitting to go to Ft. Wayne. So here's a whole chain reaction she just started. Go you Joetta, for fucking up hard.

Oh man. I know I wouldn't go hog wild with all the money, but I do know I would be getting a lot of stuff. I'd pay off my debt, get a car that can make it to a place without dying horrific deaths along the way, get a home, and definately get married. The rest would be saved up and sit preciously in my account. But what I have to pay would take a good chunk of money out. *sigh*

Hmmm, Ghosts were one of them because i could hear them. Dogs running towards me from my dad's woods. (I had so many nightmares!) And Candy man. I fought my inner self to even use the restroom.

Surpassed them though. Dogs still scare me a bit, but I can attack back now if they come for me.

So, John and i did make up. I was so SO SO close to leaving that I brought out my luggage and everything, when I thought, i'll wait until V-day to see if something good happens, and it did. Now we're ok, I've narrowed down the problems causing us a lot of anger in our house. MAIN REASON: McD's. We're so stressed from that job it's ridiculous. We catch all this crap from the managers and Joetta that it's just causing us to blow up on each other. I've noticed that i'm also getting more and more angry at little things, not to the extent John gets, but i'm working that way. So I put in my app at the hotels in Auburn and can atleast hope for the best. If worse comes to worse, and Joetta keeps on this retarded path she on of cutting my hours just because I don't like dead-leg, then I'll go to partial unemployment until I leave. I got my hours cut to just 3 days a week now because Allena and I got blamed for Charlie having her boyfriend in the back with her the whole time she worked. Thing is, Allena and I weren't working with Charlie at that time. So why are we catching the crap? Anyways, I atleast made a move to leave that place. And I'm going to try and join the Ikasu art staff and maybe make it that way. My first scarf to start advertising for sale is done as well. I want to sew up a bulk of them, so next Ohayocon, I sell them at $15, and make a 6-7 dollar profit. That'll atleast make up for the table and all the registration money i'll be putting into it.

So costumes i'm going to dress in for Ohayocon: Aisha Clan Clan from Outlaw Star, and hopefully Cammy from Street Fighter.

OH OH, and i'm losing weight!!

First things first, DYING MY HAIR RED. Wynona Judd red. So it's got the fabulous yellows and peach colors and all that craziness in it. Greg got his baby back after Crystal did some scary stuff and we thought the baby was going to be stolen. And Kim's baby shower is coming up, dunno who she invited, so if you're there, it'll be a surprise to me! Anyways, onto real subject here.

BIG REPEATING RANT UP AHEAD! I think Cupid hit me with a poisoned arrow or something. Cause as it get closer and closer to Valentine's Day, John gets to being more and more of an asshole! Seriously! Yesterday, he got so pissed that his computer couldn't play his game right that when he went to go punch the pillow, it ended up hitting me in the back of the head full force! And he expected me not to be pissed off at him for hitting me and that I should understand why he got mad. No, I won't understand why he's getting mad because his shitty, virus-filled computer took a dump on him whilst playing a GAME. Then, today, i'm sitting down happily drawing on Rachel's art card, and Keith and his friend come over. I'm sick, so I really don't feel like talking too much (I got to play some of FF Dissidia in Japanese for a bit though), so I told John "Hey, when did you want to go to work, so I can drop you off unless you want to get a drink because then we have to leave early." Each time i asked, I didn't get a reply. So I just left at 4:35 so Keith could leave me alone and so Dennis didn't have to walk to the library. Then John continued to bitch about not wanting to go to work. I told him to just come in, say he's sick, and then i'll pick him up if he hates it that much. So he says no, he'll come in. So I thought alright maybe he just wants to sit in the car for a bit just to really not come in and relax a minute. So I start talking to him about what Brandy asked yesterday. Then he won't talk to me! So i'm having this one sided conversation, trying to find something so he'd respond. Then i notice, drive thru is backed up and that it might be time to clock in. He gets pissed and throws the door open and i'm like, "dude, wtf did you just get mad for?" Then he gets mad and sarcastic saying "Well I HAVE TO WORK" and slams the door in my face when I said 'I love you' to him. Didn't even get a chance to finish the sentence and he stormed off like it was my fault he was scheduled to work. I was working for 2 weeks straight with only one day off aside from today when he threw this fit. I think it's a little bit deserved if I have a day off. So...I dunno. With these recent events, and him saying he's pretty not going to do anything for me for V-day (Even though i've got him a bouquet of roses), i'm.....seriously considering on breaking it with him. I........I dunno what to do anymore. I keep mulling over this and thinking to myself about what I should do. Maybe I just need a break? I dunno. Fuck, he even broke the umbrella because it wouldn't work right. BROKE A METAL UMBRELLA. Maybe it's the job making him so damn angry, but...Why do I have to catch this shit? I do the same job all the time too. And i'm not happy that Dennis is still their either, but...really? He hasn't gave me a kiss or a hug today because he's throwing a fit about work. Shit, gotta cut this off where it is. I'm gonna keep mulling over this. I've been putting up with too much.

So, in the immortal words of Nikki, "i've been getting my grandma on" by crocheting like a mad man. My mum has been helping me (sorry nikki!) so far I can chain, double, triple, and quadruple stitch like a mad man. My first project, socks...then i'm going to make a baby-doll style dress. (Not the actual baby doll dress for baby dolls.) So we'll see how that goes.

OH! And I stood up to John yesterday. We got in a fight cause his shirt smelled like cat pee, because Cray was in his last pissing days and went hog wild with it, I told him it smelled, he got mad at me (and then said "oh no, i was getting mad because it was peed on and it was bullshit", yeah...whatever). So he told me to stop yelling and listen to why he yelled at me, I screamed back no, I was going to yell because it was out of line and the next time he yells at me like that again, i'm gone or he's beaten. So we left to Colby's baby shower, but I had to get a gift, so I left him crying in the car. And you know what? I didn't feel one bit guilty about it! I swear to god, Dennis needs to leave so John can quit his womanizing bullshit.

Back onto regular life, I really REALLY want to go to college, still can't, gotta get teeth fixed first and pay down my credit card so I don't go empty handed. feeling like i'm behind a little in life with Kim being pregnant AND already married, and Rachel going to college to fight battalions of math numbers and loco questions on the universe. Nikki, we're failing pretty hard here.

Well, that's it, still no internet on my side, just gonna have to use my mum's for a little bit and crochet until it comes back. And btw, Uma Thurman is just damn beautiful. Can't get over that.

Adios.

I actually didn't buy this, i'm really not too interested in it. But I should, yet not because i'm a poor ass who wishes to have all the DeG goods. Anyways, I have the pictures on mah photobucket if anyone wants to look. http://s28.photobucket.com/albums/c238/Bloodius/Dir%20en%20Grey/

I have to admit, Toshiya looks really good in these, if not a bit snakey. Kaoru looks pretty badass and a marshmallow at the same time. He does not offend the senses though. Look at one of Dies pics and you can see Best Buy in the background, ha! And Shinya....NEVER MOVES. I prefer the natural look he was sporting at the concert when Rachel and I met them. As for Kyo, that guy I swear is an oni in himself. No man should ever be so tantalizing in a one piece jumpsuit. He makes my eyes explode with awesome. Hope anyone who sees this journal enjoys them. I'm gonna go have some coffee now and think of how to bear the week in one piece until pay day, hell let alone this day, Bush's speech has been taking up my Bonnie Hunt show time. OH ONE WEEK AND CRAY GETS FIXED! I'M SO FUCKING HAPPY!!!